Trying to get up
I just love how someone can write something and millions of people can relate. I can’t imagine this world without art. I just feel like there’s always some type of art helping someone getting though things.
Sometimes I feel like going MIA because life gets so hard and it’s so much easier to disappear, be bitter and ignore everything. Then, I remind myself that I don’t want to be in the same place I was in three years ago. But my god life could really hurt and man I’m so sick of life hurting. And I’m tired of always putting up a front. I’m trying so hard for myself to be happy, but sometimes it just doesn’t happen no matter how hard you try. I just hope this all pays off one day. I just hope that I get to experience full on happiness one day.
Sometimes I feel like happiness is just an illusion. Like it’s not a real thing. I feel like the more I work at it the more problems I see going on.
Last time I checked tumblr is made for whatever we want to do. If I want to express myself that’s what I’m going to do. It’s my tumblr that I made for myself to express whatever I want to express on it.
I hate when people do shit they know annoys you. Like I must be stupid and not realize these things and like I have time for bullshit.
I’m dying to go Dumbo, Brooklyn with my camera
Argentina has such a nice flag
These past two years have been extremely hard. I finally stopped ignoring that my dad left and that he’s hurt me so much. These past months I’ve been working so hard to not be so destroyed over that. I feel like I’m in such a better place with that situation now. I’m just so thankful for the two people that have stayed up nights with me to try to calm me down because I’m crying or just feeling extremely down. I honestly don’t think I would be where I am at now with the situation without the push towards moving forward they gave me. My life may never be exactly what I want it to be and my father will always be gone, but I know whatever my situation may be I’m blessed to have those who truly care for me around.
Sometimes you have to just forgive others for hurting you, forgive yourself for allowing yourself to get hurt and close up the doors and let life open new ones.
Love yourself more than anyone in this world could ever even think of loving you, you do matter.
I never try to be perfect
I try to be the best me I can be for myself and others. Not only when everything’s fine, but also when things are bad. The older I get the more I hear of friends or people I know dying. I never like leaving things on bad terms because I feel like this life could take me away at any moment or anyone at that. Seeing people be here one day and not the other really has made me evaluate the way I act and the way I wanna act. I’ve been working so hard to be the best me I can be and it’s so hard sometimes and it leads to disappointments sometimes, but if I’m not here tomorrow no one can’t say I never tried and most importantly I will know that I tried. I just want people to really think about this. I know life seems so hard sometimes, but it’s truly a very beautiful thing. I also know that bad things happen to people that don’t deserve it, but life isn’t fair. There are over billions of people that have wanted life so bad and have had it taken away from them and you have one. You’re so lucky to have one. So feel lucky, always try to be the best you.
I lay in bed every night and think. Lately I’ve been thinking about my future. I’ve been caring so much for my happiness. I see things changing for me little by little. Things that no one could see. It’s a little scary with these little changes I’m just caring less and less about things little by little.
I hate when people ask me what I’m doing when they can clearly see what the fuck I’m doing… Like why ?
People need to learn how to be okay by themselves